It's been a while. I was busy with my studies, and to be honest I still am. I'm not complaining, I love studying Popular Music at Falmouth University. I didn't think that we'll be philosophizing about hegemony in popular culture, about autonomy of art and how music subcultures can be subversive.
Actually, nothing really happened during almost two months in the UK; some things happened, but not something you might be interested in.
okay, see you later! And hopefully I'll have something to talk about next time.
I accidentally found this four-year-old song in the old archives of my mp3 player, it kept playing in my head and brought all the memories back, and, inevitably, I started philosophizing.
'I always hoped that I'd learn how to fly In my dreams I'm there'
So many things have happened in my little life and I'm so busy that I've almost left behind everything related to my school and my routine filled life. I'll return to this reality later when I'll be able, or when I'll want to. I know It'll take a lot of time and even more effort to find some courage in myself to do so. Of course, my life hasn't been the easiest these weeks. But I'm not complaining. It just seems that the last year in this hometown is getting even harder week after a week.
'I'm only going where you'll be someday So don't say "Rest in peace" in your prayers'
You may think I'm talking nonsenses. Reading back what I've written, It feels like nobody could understand what I'm talking about. It's more like a conversation with myself. With no hint of sense.
To be honest, every conversation seems senseless, sometimes, at some point of view.
I actually don't know whether or not should I publish this post.
I have so many secrets. Sometimes way too many. Only the people whom I truly trust know at least something more about me. I know this might be a bad thing, but I've been hurt way too many times before.
'I hope you remember me I hope you never pretend for me'
The summer has begun so I decided to freshen up appearance of this blog. Actually the songs of Arcade Fire gave the idea of changing this blog. Also, it's been almost a year since I've changed something. Changes are good, aren't they? But I didn't change the header. I just love it too much!!! AND, if I randomly (as always) get a brainstorm, then I will change the background more often.
Today. I. Wrote. A. Song. Yesterday. I. Did. That. Again. Tonight. I. Will. Do. That. Either.
Maybe I just need to wait until the night when the best ideas come into my head.
And again, I'll go to bed 'early'.
Also my emotions are very weirdly unstable...
... I had a weird dream of a guy who was my neighbor and he was obsessed with band called 'Bombay Bicycle Club'. I was pretending that I'm obsessed with them as same as he. He wanted me to visit him every day and made me read every single magazine with them. That guy was sleeping on the couch covered with magazines... Also he had a secret entrance to the underground world... Oh, weird.... when i woke up I thought 'WTF?!?'
Also I don't like my neighbors who are living beneath my flat 'cuz they are WAY TOO LOUD. Even now I hear them running around...
What I would do if there would be some indie guys in my town?!?
Sadly, but there won't...
even after hundreads of years...
Every guy here is... erm... oh dear. I can't even describe.... most of them are wearing tracksuits, listening to dumb remixes, swearing. They like girls who are obsessed with town's "popculture"; they avoid the different ones and if the person loves rock music, they say she's a killer or a person who soon will commit suicide (...I had experienced some insults about the music I like and they were calling me a killer. Even if I don't listen to death metal... yet)....
Someone had said: 'Being different means being yourself, standing for your own views and beliefes. However, it is hazardous to your health and emotions. Being yourself is a difficult task when most of people fail...'
Hello people! I'm sorry I haven't been in touch for a while but now it'll chage.
So, as you may know I live in Lithuania, a post-soviet country. I had found some old soviet magazines (they called "Švyturys" or "Lighthouse" in English... It was named like that because of soviet ideology about the lighthouse which would guide people to beter soviet life... yep, an utopian thing) and I was a bit surprised when I saw sci-fi comics on the last page of magazine (JACKPOT hahaha xD). I really liked them, but Soviet wouldn't be Soviet... those comics are weird and unclear. :D
So, I'll post what I found and I'll write the EXACT translations of them (cuz Lithuanian artist drew them) ;D
The first one:
Translation:
Title - An accident in Gamma
Strange accident - as if they all went crazy. Only automaton cries for help. Prepare the breakdown gand urgently.
THREE COSMONAUTS...
SELENA - 1...
DELTA'S SYSTEM....
PLANET GAMMA....
THE ACTIVITY OF ENVIRONMENT - UNKNOWN,
GRAVITATIONAL FIELD - UNEXPLORED,
BIOCONDITIONS - UNINDENTIFIED.... ...
03, 02, 01, 00 START! Goodluck, friends! Here it is - Gamma! Descend!
I see them! Prepare, Lozenge!
Blue seas. Green fields. Descend!
Lozenge, you metal fool, you drowned us!
Interesting, if they digest metal?
I'm sorry I haven't written here for ages, but the fact is that I'm always busy.... Yeah I know, the summer supposed to be relaxing and holiday time, but now I'm so busy. Today I have some freetime, so I'm writing...
I wrote an article, but I didn't published it yet... Dunno why.
These days are really hot and I hate that. lol
erm, I don't really know why, but I'm very jelaous of people who were at this year's Glastonbury festival. I wanted to go there, BUT I don't know how. I think it's impossible to ger there when the tickets are sold out only after 12 hours. Wow. I believe maybe later I'll find some friends who would love to go there. Eh...
We had celebrated the Midsummer festival... It was nice. We were watching movies and eating popcorns from 11pm 'till 4am. I don't know why but the last years "Midsummer festival" was better for me... I was watching Muse concerts and went to bed only at 5am.
erm... I don't like "traditional" Lithuanian Midsummer festival. It's strange... Jumping around the torch, drinking beer as much as you can and singing stupid songs while you're drunk.... BLAH....
I guess that's all.... Maybe later I'll write something with meaning and something interesting.
OK, I'll go to eat chocolate; I can't live without it :D
Yeah, I'll admid. I can't speak Italian at all... "THE Google translator" is my bff :D as always...
Ok, the thigs are getting even better and better. I hope so.
Oh yes, tomorrow I'll go to so-called "THE new school". I mean there won't be lessons tomorrow. I'll just finish "THE paper things". Erm, yep. I've changed my chool. Now, when my sectret is revealed, I can feel much better (liar... I don't feel any difference).
erm, what's next?
nothin'
Ah, yeah. Another thing which is wery... erm... embarrassing? I think.
er, forget it :P
I read THE awesome book. It's a short sci-fi sories collection by Arthur C. Clarke - The Nine Billion Names of God... This was amazing story. I really like these lines:
Overhead, without any fuss, the stars were going out...
these words were describing THE end of THE World. Pure epicness...
THE timeless song which is in my mind:
yep, this always happens to me. When I'm disappointed with "THE new" music, then I isten to "THE old" ones. 50'ties, 60'ties and 70'ties music is much different. I can see THE talented people, who were creating such an amazing music. They just needed one and only: THE talent. Without those stupid so-called "busty dancers" (I'm glad that Muse don't hire dancers... 'cuz Matt is the dancer with guitar.. mmmm *drools*).
ok ok. My diagnosis: "THE stupid cureless Muse fangirl"
It's weird, but I'm very satisfied with my status...
ok, THE end
erm... what's wrong with me? why do I write THE with uppercase? Maybe it's because I'm THE weirdo :D
(maybe I should change my blog's name into THE weirdo's diary? he... doin' it now)
It sounds weird, but my neighbor, who lives next to my flat, gave this name to his dog. I heard it! It was hilarious, though :) Maybe he was just angry, ‘cos the dog was barking all night… When I say ‘the dog’, I mean one tiny Chihuahua... But… give this name to the dog? It’s too stupid for me…
These days the Chihuahua lives really safely, ‘cos no-one doubts about its orientation… I think… :D
Hi again! I haven't written here for ages! I was just too busy and tired... Well... what happened in those days? Nothing really good...
Three weeks ago, I didn't know what's the feeling, when you realise that your biggest dream is broken... Yep... now I know that feeling very well... Too bad that it won't come true, but everyone says, that hope dies the last... I don't really know if it can come true... But I will answer this question only in my last minute of my life... But I don't want to talk about that... I just don't wanna feel sad again, and start crying...
Two weeks ago, I decided to change my life... Everything... But I haven't done anything yet... The most paradoxical thing is that I've changed my myspace, facebook and other sites accounts... erm... facebook is a piece of crap (sorry facebook lovers...) i'm tired of people (espacialy the male), who are sending me friend requests. I don't say that I don't like that, but I have more than 70 friends there, and only 15 are women... Strange... But in my myspace I haven't got any friends. It sounded kinda dramatic, wasn't it? ;D So, you can add me on facebook or myspace. I will always accept your request (to find me on facebook, write my name and surname: Simona Jareckaite. For myspace, go to www.myspace.com/simonyte1994) :) I want to meet more people XD in facebook no one is writing to me ;( (dramatic... again!) I should stop writing like this, because my post will be just like the poor soap-opera... 'Oh, I'm so sad!! *falling tears*. No one wants to be my friend! *drying tears in the sleeve*, Nobody visits my blog! I'm so sad!!! Whyyyy???? *wailing very loud* I have no friends in this world! No one understands me!I'm not lost, I'm just undiscovered! But no one will discover me! *falls down of the factorie's chimney*' And then, one soul felt free, when a person died...
Yep... big changes.... I just want to do something useful in this World... I know... I'm just too young (I'm only 15 years old, but it makes no difference to me...). But I still want to do something useful in this World where I live in... I think, that I need to wait for my lucky moment. Then, I will change the World from top to the bottom. I just need to be more patient... To be patient and ready for the big World's changes...
A week ago, I catched an ill.... Not very impressive... high temperature (the highest I've ever had)... I don't want to remember the details.... And I'm still feeling exhausted because of those medicines, pills and stuff like that...
Yesterday.... I thought, that people probably lived in the Mars, very long time ago... I know, that's silly, but I just imagined the Earth when it will be the place where we couldn't live in... Just imagine: the Earth is changed. There isn't enough oxygen to breathe. The climate is changed. Everything what we had is damaged and destroyed... Thw view of our Earth would be just like in MUSE video clip 'Sing for absolution'. I think after hundread or thousand years. Everything will be just like in that video clip. People will fly to the Earth, where people lived long time ago, and thy will see, that we damaged our home. And then just left it... And that view reminds me the view of Mars... Don't you think like that?
I will put the video of wonderful MUSE song, Sing for absolution:
There were some comments which were exactly what I'm saying now! Wow, there are people, who thinks just like me. Maybe, I'm not a veirdo.... Who cares :P
...yes, we will destroy our Earth, just like people, who lived in Mars very long time ago. I think, in my theory, there is a tithe of true. I think, that people lived in Mars. And anyone can't deny it, because there weren't and archeological analysis, so...
few minutes ago... I was googling everything, that I thought about... my name, my surname, cat, umbrella, Matthew Bellamy, gorgeous, music, Muse, Dominic Howard, drummer, guitar, Chris Wolstenholme, world, planet, mars.... And I've found something VERY interesting about Mars... Tou can watch its surface and elevation!
OMG! (or OMM-oh my muse, OMMB-oh my matthew ballamy... and something like that...) I thought that little children won't want to become astronauts, bacause they just can google it and watch everything online or with google earth... And in the future the number of astronauts could have been decreased (or maybe not.. dunno). The internet is very important thing today... It can do almost everything!.. I'm wondering why it can't launder my socks... I don't actually know, maybe afer two or more years it will do that... who knows...
if you interested of watching Mars online, go to this site in that page, you will see the elevation of Mars... I'm not against the new technologies. It's cool... But sometimes I'm wondering what will be nex?... What will happen in our Universe? In our home, in the Earth?..
few seconds ago... I'm trying to figure out, what is the purpose of my exhistance... interesting... Maybe the purpose of my exhistance is to exhist? Or maybe it is to find ou it? Or just wait for something? Go straight on the groud and don't know if there is a big hole afer few steps... Maybe I will fall... Maybe I will survive... This is the beauty of the life...
